Thursday, June 7, 2012

Watch You Grow! Month 1

Dear Ensley,

Here are all the things that happened our first month together.

Month 1: 

This month was full of newness and change. We couldn't believe you we're actually here! You were very sweet your first month and extremely alert and attentive for a newborn. You were very petite and tiny, so much so that we had to go out and by you newborn clothes because we didn't have anything you could wear. This is actually one of my favorite memories because I was home with you by myself and Daddy went out to Babies R Us to buy clothes and burp cloths and swaddles, and all these things we needed that we didn't realize we needed. he came home with huge bags of stuff and picked these little monkey onesies and cute burp clothes with bears. After all that, I didn't often dress you because I loved having you in just a diaper wrapped up in a cozy, warm blanket. Your favorite was a pink and white polka dot with green fuzz on the inside. I begged daddy not to do summer school because I was so scared to be home alone with you! Someone came to the house everyday for two weeks while I was healing from my C-section to help me with you. Mostly, it was Mimi and Aunt Jenn.
 
My and my girl. You used to love to sleep on me like this before you became so independent!

Your firsts: Daddy gave you your very first bath at home on May 11th. Both of us were scared to death. You were so tiny and fragile. Right after we took you out of the bath you pooped all over your towel so it was all over you. I ended up wiping you down with baby wipes, so the bath was pretty worthless. We celebrated my first Mother's Day at our house with Mimi, Aunt Jen, Uncle Kenny, and Uncle James. Everyone just talked about what a beautiful and perfect baby you were.


This was my first Mother's Day. Look at how exhausted Daddy looks!

Things you liked: Sleeping! You were such a good sleeper!! Daddy and I were very lucky. Eating! You were the best eater, but I just wasn't making enough milk for you. I tried and tried to nurse through pain, infection, pumping because it is what was best for you. It was special for me to be the only one who could feed you too. Being swaddled. You loved being swaddled tight like a little burrito. I would do it most of the time because Daddy would get nervous that he was doing it too tightly, but I made sure you felt snug as a bug.

Some of my favorite pictures:


THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BABY EVER BORN! I mean, look at you. People all the time would remark about how absolutely gorgeous you were. Perfectly shaped head, beautiful face, and dainty little body. Just beautiful.

Look at how alert you were even at a couple days old! You always wanted to see what was going on.

Grandma and Grandpa Turner just loved you and visited all the time!


This is one of Daddy's very favorite memories with you. He always wanted you to sleep on his chest like this, and I think this was one of the very few times that you did. He still talks about how special this moment was.


HATED this stupid swing. :)









 
Hilarious! Aunt Jen took this with her phone. It was your first accidental smile caught on film.
 This month was all at once overwhelming, exciting, and exhausting. Looking back, I so wish that I could have enjoyed it more without being bogged down by all the fear, doubt, and pain. I wish I could rewind time and just hold you for hours and hours and hours all tiny and brand new. Don't get me wrong, you are so fun and wonderful as you get older, but sometimes I miss the fact that you aren't a tiny little nugget anymore. You are so special and wonderful, and I will always look back and love our first month together.

I love you.

Love,

Mommy